Tuesday, December 31, 2013


Final weigh in for 2013.  Up about 2 lbs this year over all. That's a real win in my books. 

Goals for 2014:
More regular workouts, healthy life choices
Stay healthy
Body positive - body positive - body positive!!
Have fun
Stay curious
Embrace my inner nerd
Continue to fall in love with my husband
Get to know my friends and family better
Try new things
Do more things that scare me
Love freely
Stick up for myself
Enjoy all of it


Tuesday, December 24, 2013

160.2lbs & broken wrist update

Super shocked at the weight maintenance as I've been 100% sedentary & eating things I wouldn't normally. All the reading I've done about healing does say that bone repair uses a ton of calories. Sweet deal. 

Sleeping is still all over the place. I stayed up until 4am last night, slept until 9am on the couch and then moved into bed where I slept until 12:30pm. It was actually the best sleep I've had in a while. 

This weekend N and I traveled to PA to surprise my father for his birthday. It was really awesome, he had no idea we were coming. C, his g/f, set the whole thing up. She told my dad they were going out to dinner with her mom but first she had to pick up her nephew from the Trenton train station. My day was so happy and shocked to see us instead. 

I have to say, I don't care that I'll be 30 in just a few months, I am so glad I've gotten to see both of my parents so soon after the accident. I saw my mom in like a week and my dad just before two. I love them so much and they're really just the best anyone could ask for. They love and support me so much that even though I'm all growed up and married now, I can not imaging doing this with out them. I love you Mo. I love you Daddie-o. 

There's really nothing like an accident like this for you to realize how many wonderful people you have in your life that are just really ready to drop everything and just be there for you. Since the accident it's been really clear to me about what is really important to me, seeing the world and just being with the people that I love. Like I really cannot wait to go back to work, even, just to see the family I've built there in the past few months. So many people that I want to learn more about, laugh with, cry with and be there for. 

I cannot wait to see my crazy family the day after Christmas and just be with them the way they are. And my husband's family, ugh, just the most loving bunch of people that welcomed me with the widest arms. 

How could there be anything in life more important then the people we share it with? Hobbies and possessions and money and are nothing with out those people to share it with. 

Now that my eyes and nose are thoroughly leaking I'm going to go. I love you wild people. Please go out and love some one too. 

Sunday, December 15, 2013


I still got on the scale this morning. I figured why not. I mean more then anything now I get the meaninglessness of the number. 

The days are actually going by ok. I'm in the most pain right when I wake up. Then I spend a few hours with just ibuprofen for the pain. My appetite has been small which has been good. My body wants good and the as soon as it doesn't anymore I loose my taste for it. I've been drinking lots of water. 

A few bruises have popped up over the past few days but nothing major. 

Today I ventured out of the house with N. We walked out to our Pathmark to get some easy to open food for me. I was doing well, walking slow and checking oncoming traffic like mad, until we were crossing Atlantic Ave and a passing car honked their horn. I began to cry on the spot. It took only a minute to collect myself but it was rough, really surprised even me. In the Pathmark I was nervous of everyone walking around and following close but I made it through without freaking out. I was glad to be there and back before dark. 

Once home it was time to eat again and have a Vicodin & a nap. I slept well but felt restless. 

After wrapping up my arm I tried a new way of baithing. I sat in the tub with the water running and used a pitcher to wet/rinse myself. It felt way more productive then just sitting in a regular full bath. I even managed to shave which felt like a major accomplishment. 

N goes back to work tomorrow but so far I have people lined up to be with me thus week. Alx is coming tomorrow & I'll be heading to acupuncture AJ from work is coming Tuesday and Wednesday Mo will be here to come to my Ortho appointment. 

I think I might be getting a cold but in hoping that's just a passing thing. 

Oh I could wiggle the fingers on my left hand a bunch too. That always makes me smile. 

Saturday, December 14, 2013


Hey loves I'm sorry that I have been MIA. Wednesday evening after work I was walking home and was hit by a car. I have a broken wrist but am ok. Shaken mostly. Sore even more. 

I was in the cross walk, crossing with the light. The car that hit me was making a left onto the street I was crossing and had reduced visibility, I'm sure, due to another car having stopping in the cross walk. They stopped after the impact and stuck around. A stranger on the street stood between me and traffic and called 911 for me. 

My arm has been set, I'm in a cast and N has been taking incredible care of me. Next Wednesday I go to the orthopedic Surgen to find out how the bone is healing and if I'll need surgery. I've been taking Vicodin for the pain and ibuprofen for swelling. Lots of rest, icing and elevating. 

I'm going to need a lot of support over the coming months. I will ask for it when I need it but check in with me from time to time if you can. 

I cried tonight for the first time. I haven't cried once since the accident. Not even when I was hit. It all fell on me today when I sat down to pee at one point. I got a twinge in my wrist and began to weep. I got out of the rest room, told N I needed a hug and cried for what felt like 15 minutes. 

I'm so insanely lucky. I'm so thankful that I'm not dead and that those closest to me are some of the most amazing people on the planet. 

Thank you for reading. 
I love you. 

After having my arm set and put into a cast, about to have my 2nd set of X-rays. This smile brought to you by shock, morphine and me being awesome. 

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Sunday, December 8, 2013

161.6lbs & Girls on the Run 5K

I accidentally posted Friday's post about Spa Castle to 204 Eats, but I copied it and posted here so please go take a look at that post.

Spa Castle Day! [originally posted on 204 Eats by mistake!]

As to be expected, MB and I had an incredible time at Spa Castle.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Wednesday, December 4, 2013


Fatigue is the word of the day today.  I'm mid way though my period and just feeling blah.  All day at work I was out of it.  I made some hot chocolate from coconut milk and chocolate nibs.  Super tasty but way too rich.  Now I'm just cranky and my stomach hurts.  Way too go Wednesday.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Monday, December 2, 2013


Today was really awesome.  I took lots of notes though out my day about stuff that I want to write about here and on 204Eats.

Sunday, December 1, 2013